Monday, October 31, 2005
hello all!!!
happy halloween!! TRICK OR TREAT ??? =D
haha. yup. and i'm spending halloween doing my OP presentation speech and slides. cool huh!? no costumes, no nothing! just me and my laptop.
okay. i have to make alot of amendments cos mrs ng gave me plenty of feedback today, considering the last time i saw her i only managed to cover the first para of my speech. haha. so much work today! okay. i'm not sleeping tonight. have to get my bandit to 50 asap too. haha. feel like switching worlds to bootes cos aquila is so darn crowded!
anyways, our CT advises me to drop one sub again! i mean i'm really tempted to. besides, firstly, i dun even take S paper so what for take 4A's and start killing myself. secondly, i'll be together with wanqi and steph!!! in the same class! wahahahha. that rockkkkkks. thinkin of it makes me wanna go up to mrs ng and snatch that drop form from her stack of papers. =x
yay! chinese A's is over. heck it! enjoy ur hols all! (:
PS. gonna be quite busy with OGL stuff this hols. but then again, when am i ever "not busy"? hahaa! =p
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 11:12 PM
11:12 PM
Saturday, October 29, 2005
ahhhhhhhhh.
i need money!!! ahah. serious cash flow problems. i think i have a negative value already. haha! which means that i OWE people money. this is the first time i'm actually facing this kinda crisis.!
okay. i realised that there are many things i can do at the moment but i lack the funds carry them out. =( siannnnnnn!! do u know how sian that is. aiya heck care. got stupid chinese A's on monday and if i bring up money issues to my parents, they'll probably ask me go study some shit first. so later people~
i'm gonna get some money after the chinese A's, i dun care!!! lol. kae la. i actually need them to return some debts. =x
hmm. lasty, can u people give me advice.. those who had taken the A's already or something. should i drop to 3 A's or stick to 4 A's ? what's ur take on that..
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 7:02 PM
7:02 PM
Friday, October 28, 2005
hi all!
i like this layout, alot. haha. it makes me feel very mature, though i think i'm not very. =p
anyway, there are people coming up to me, telling me not to sound so mature (when i'm talking online) as i'm only 17. lol. i don't think i speak older than i actually am la! zz. weirdos.
apart from all that, i really really really like my blogskin!!! i know i said that earlier but i can't help it! okok. nothing much is happening in my life lately. 1. just have the chinese A's coming up on monday. 2. my daddy told me that he's gonna get me a new phone!! get this straight, i'm not like those kinda pampered daughters who get whatever they want. hahaha. argue all u want! in fact, this IS a replacement phone for me.. my current one is my mummy's.
i can't wait for the chinese A's to be over and done with.. lately i haven't been spending enough time with stephie and wanqi cos of the stupid troublesome PW which takes up so much of my time. to complement it, mrs ng's so demanding when it comes to pw. zz.
speaking of her, she made those who failed the criteria to continue taking 4 As drop one subject ON THE SPOT today. she didn't even give us one whole day to consider what to drop carefully la! what if we regret our whole lives, dropping that one subject which we felt at that point in time was THE subject to drop but after some time think otherwise? i think she's the
strictest CT in mjc. she doesn't even give anyone grace. there are other CT who close one eye and allow the students to continue despite having AO passes in 1 subject. how can!? so unfair. and our conduct is also based on our results. -_-" what kind of logic is that? now almost a good half of our class is gonna drop one subject, leaving only about 7 of us left taking 4 A's. for me, i'm still considering my options. i can keep all 4 or drop one to lighten my load since i'm not even taking S paper, it's a viable choice. by rights, i should drop one in order to improve my other 3 A's. besides, stephie and wanqi have dropped biology already..
maybe i should.. dunno what i want.
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 11:15 PM
11:15 PM
Thursday, October 27, 2005
i feel like changing my blog skin. bahhs.
okay i will, later. after i'm finished with my OP speech. mrs ng actually said that i have the potential to become a good public presenter. hahaha. -_- all along i disliked speaking in front of a huge crowd. i'm just doing this because like we jc students do not have a way out of it. anyways i think i have a soft voice and i cannot project it loud! ):
well, i'm soooo bored and sian with pw. the I &R, OP, EOM, PI, WR and whatever! zz..
just some random musings. i think i should start liking someone because i have a reason to. i mean.. i need to find out what attracts me to the other party. it's kinda dumb liking someone cos i just do right.. hahaha. people will give me the.. o.O face. makes me wanna slap them but that's not the point. haha. i wanna find out more about myself! =p~
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 7:36 PM
7:36 PM
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
hello!
i'm so sian. what's my life becoming into ? work work and more work. plus some maple. haha. =x
this isn't the life i wan. yea. i wanna be a reflectorr!!! haha. =D
today angeline and erica came to my place and slacked till our OGL interview time slots. haha. hopefully we all made it in. i wanna be in the same group as cindy and angeline!!! (:
and i dun wanna be put into sargas. anything but that! wenjian fired me a question today which was.. whether i joined OGL because i wanted to help the college or for the orientation house. ahh well. i said that the bigger picture would be to help the college though i love zosma! and that i would channel my energy into the house that i might be alloted into. too bad zosma's taken out. haha. our house spirit dam strong!!! hahha..
my interview was done with KBL the mugger chun wai and cindy. i mean, i think me and cindy were the loudest cos poor KBL forgot the cheer and chun wai wasn't loud. serious.. so our cheer was quite soft. wahahahs. =p~
can't wait for the interview results to be out either end of this week or next week. hahahaha. happy!!
anyways, people.. please pray for kev who is lying in the hospital (i think). think he's really not in a good state. Lord father, please look after him okays. (:
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 7:43 PM
7:43 PM
i enjoy working myself hard. even after a long tiring day of WR, i'm still up at this hour. hahaha.
i'm actually quite disappointed with a close friend of mine. shan't name anyone but i feel so ignored by that person. should i continue to try and try so hard to stay in contact? should i ? even when the other party might not even give a damn about me? that person probably found some closer friends and had moved on. that shouldn't be the way though.. the friendship bond between us was so real. but now it has become worthless. why.. i dun wan it like that.
more surprisingly, it's that person's character that had changed quite a lot. i wanna know what happened. how did things turn out like that just over a few months. it's so drastic. scary.. perhaps that person had changed so much it's no longer the same old person. zz.. i dunno how i'm gonna sustain the friendship but i hopes it doesn't die out.
i rushed out the WR with my group members today. so proud of all of us! =) Thank God!!! haha. we managed to hand in on time. yea! and i thought gracelyn how to maple. now i'm a lv 46 bandit. 30.04%. haha. =p~
okay laa. time to start on some chinese. crap. hate studyin for it. haha. anyways i have a weak foundation in chinese. now listening to some JJ music. in hopes of reviving my chinese linguistic ability. =x dunno what i'm talkin abt but crap i gotta run.
it's 4.20am now!!! 6 days to chinese A's. hahha. =D
and i hope my brother does well for his upcoming O levels. (: go go go go..
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 4:09 AM
4:09 AM
Friday, October 21, 2005
today was damn FUN! haha. mjc college day!
out CG stall made lots of money! haha. thanks to many many friends and teachers support. and most of the credit goes to our very own classmates who had snapped up some of the acessories even before it all started! namely erica me and angeline. hahaha! wanqi also contributed alotttt. she bought alot of stuffs. haha... =p~
our cca stall squash didn't really do as well because most of the students werent even sure they were comin into mjc so the response wasn't good. however many dunman juniors showed some interest in the sport which was great. (:
i spent the whole day walking around school back and forth from cca booth to CG booth to atrium, to squash court. man, i covered almost 3/4 the school! ahaha. yea. music was blasting and the dance did their stuff at least 4 times in the atrium after which the councillors (pulled me in.) did the mass dance. that got me kinda sticky and tired. haha. anyway i bumped into him many many times today. lol. i dunno how to describe the feeling. (:
whoa. the best part was the whole school mass dance! yup. guess who was opposite me. haha. lalala. shall not disclose. haha. can guess rite. well, i didn't know how to dance the mass dances properly so i had to refer to the councillors. i loveee today! i can't wait to be an OGL. i don't mind being tired at all! in fact i ENJOY it! today was fun. i'm so high. hahahaha.
after the event angeline erica and i went to hans to have dinner. there i met fel and her gang of dunman dancers. hey girl lookin good as usual. haha. (:
and then i came home to have a nice relaxing bath and i shall go rest soon. tata~ hees..
oh ya. my tagboard's getting rusty. why no one tagging.. :(
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 10:03 PM
10:03 PM
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
promos results are out!!!
haha. how did i do ? okay la. fairly well. math was a bit disappointing cos i expected a better grade. haha. anyway, without further ado i present u jan's 2005 promos results.
math - B
econs - B
chem - E
biology - E
yup. thats it.
and for next years orientation, they took zosma out! NOOOO!!! that's so unfair. zosma has one of the strongest house spirits! nono. what an unwise decision.
hmm. i'd be rather busy with mj's open house 2005 so will not be here as often le. keep tagging people and stay happy!!! btw, i lost my phone contacts. so can pls sms me ur number and identify who u r ? thanks. (:
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 7:26 PM
7:26 PM
Sunday, October 16, 2005
today sucks. i'm not kiddin!!!
i lost my mobile phone. or rather it was stolen again. AGAIN. darn it. i think i'm v swey leh.
today not many ppl were in sch, much less near the tennis squash courts. and it just got stolen! like wtf.!!!
ok. that's all i'm gonna blog. infer from the above paragraph my mood for today.
in addition i got a dressing down from my mum. looks like i'm gonna be phoneless for quite some time. anything urgent please call my house number for i'm grounded due to this unfortunate shyt!(*#!)(#! incident. everything happens for a reason right. so dear lord i wish u would tell me why this happened to me a second time. learn from our mistakes.. if so den why am i the only one being taught a lesson.
anyway i cannot push away the responsiblity, it is my fault afterall.
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 2:32 AM
2:32 AM
Thursday, October 13, 2005
there's school tmr!!
haha nothing much to blog about. dun have my results yet. it's not like i'm hopefully anticipating for the return of my promos result but it has to come sooner or later and there's nothing much i can do about it now.
and i'm so anti social! haha. lazy to step outta the house. cos of my location. inaccessible mah. =x
i wanna squash.. and take tennis lessons with my dear fung. (:
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 9:03 PM
9:03 PM
it has been quite some time since i've ached like this.
haha. yesterday i played squash. now my arms thighs and legs are aching all over. sigh. haven't been exercising recently.
it's such a cloudy day today. no sun for tanning. z.
lastly i'm sorry for last night's post.
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 2:09 PM
2:09 PM
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
haven't blogged in a long time. anyway, today sucks la.
interhouse games was.. okay. but i shouldn't have gone to school overall. zz. such a waste of time.
anyways, congrats to all those tpjcians who had gotten back their promos results. hope u guys did well.
even the after promos mood sucks cos maple's so effing crowded. ya. always kena ksed cos i'm a bandit. (melee close range attacker.) unless 1) i skip school or 2) i play through the night. though either ways i would get into trouble. sian. besides, the lappy has gone for repairs. so whenever i wanna play i would have to beg my brother, somethin as absurd as sellin my soul or somethin. i really think that he has somethin against me. i mean i had nothin against him from the start. but den i dunno why he's so
weird. hmm. i mean like.. he really has somethin against me. whenever i wanna play maple he will show me that stupid idiotic expression and not let me use the com. den he plays some other game while i stand there like a fool. hey! I WANNA USE THE DAMN COM. so let me. it's after promos man!!! don't i deserve some form of relaxation??? ya there are times where he does let me use la. but i feel so stressed. he claims that if u wanna use den u use la. *shouting* like.. ERR. okay. should i play or not ? i dun deserve all this SHYT from him! damnit! he has something against me! if my younger brother wants to use the com, he definately will let him use it. ya. cos he says that i whine too much and complain about stuff. i mean i won't if he had done the same for me and just let me use right ? use ur brain can. wah lao. zz.
take tonight for example. this afternoon i told my brother that i was goin for dinner and that if i could use it for 2 hours there about from 4 to 6. so he agreed. with enough persuasion and begging. cos he was like why ? as though he's doing me a great favor. fine la. i know he doesn't like to be shifted away from the computer and so i was like.. dunno if i should use or not. but anw, i was gonna lv so i could just lv in another hour. so i insisted on using saying that i won't be back for dinner and that he could use la. so he agreed anyhow.
and so i came back at 10pm, mummy was using. so he couldn't. could tell that he was waitin for the com. i slept for a while woke up and bathed until 11. mummy went off the com and he started using the com to play solitare. hmm i wanted to go online but u-know-who was occupying the seat. i couldn't be bothered to argue with him over the usage of the com so i went to find mummy. ya. btw, he did show some effed up attitude. that pisses me off all the time. so hm he didn't let me use the com. and den i told mummy. he told my dad that i was using the whole afternoon. notice exaggeration here. and that i wasn't kind enough to him. at least not kind enough to him as my younger brother would be. why do I have to kind to such a person with such a jerk character.. i know i'll regret writing this in the end cos all the more he's my brother and it's not like i totally abhore him. he's nice. selectively nice at certain times. it's just that i feel that i'm treated unfairly. i wanna avoid all the ksing in the day due to
severe overcrowding so i wanted to lv a bit now. ok, i'm startin to regret posting this entry a lil.
damndamndamn. and so now i cannot use the com for maple cos if i do so, i'll see more of his black face and have less peace in future, with him breathing down my neck. and second thing is. i think i'm just going home after taking attendence. by doing so i would be able to avoid all the ksing from students who come back from school. yup. wish that maple wasn't crowded and that everyone would just STUDY MORE LA! stop playing!! haha. argh!!! all these started cos of maple!! u evil game!! stay away from meeee!!
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 11:16 PM
11:16 PM
Sunday, October 09, 2005
i sighed heavily as a sign of relief the moment i woke up this morning.
i made a horrible dream. one that seemed so real, it traumatizes u and i actually believed it. uh huh it was about the promos results. it started, being in a classroom somewhat like mj's. but, the only difference was that steph and wanqi weren't around. that might have made the dream seem even less comforting without their presence to cheer me up. someone started giving out the result slips, those brown ones. and soon mine arrived at my table.
confident in my abilities, i turned the paper up. WHOA i got the shock of my life. AO for math GP chinese, F for bio and chem and econs. and they were not even close to an AO. they were like 11 marks away from AO minimum which meant that the rest were far from AO.
yup. and then came along fifi. hahaha! firdaus la. lucky u. appeared in my dream! =D
he like got A, E and AO kinda result. it was as though i'm the only one not getting promoted. after that i woke up. phew. maybe i've been thinking too much.. maybe.
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 9:30 AM
9:30 AM
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
day 1 of promos CLEAR!
heh. 4 more days to go. yes!! hope i pass.
my hands hurt. from writing the 3 econs essay. i did 4 5 and 6. i heard some people say that it wasn't a wise choice. but what can i say. i did it anyway. wahahhaa.
i did everything i could and committed the papers to God. (:
PRESS ON PEOPLE! *peace. heh.
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 10:35 PM
10:35 PM
